It sucks, it really does. Apart of you wants better, apart of you is content and apart of you is happy. Then when you lose what you have, you finally realize what you had. Tragic isn’t it? Then you finally know what you want. Or do you? Apart of you wants to go to back to the past with what you had, apart of you wants to look into the future and find better and apart of you is content. We never know what we want do we? Or maybe we do. We want it all or nothing. Fragments of you want something else, and now all of you is hurting.
It never just “is.” It’s always “because.” We always have to do something for a reason, and not because we just did. Why can’t it just be “I’m happy.” why do we have to wait for something good to happen in order for us to be happy? And certainly why the hell do we need an excuse to be? “I should feel lonely because I’m not with someone.” “I should feel upset because I broke up with my ex.” it feels like we’re confusing the way we do feel, the way we want to feel and the way we should or are expected to feel. Emotions are never simple, but making an excuse is.
You can lie about your feelings, but you can’t defeat them.
I frequently get asked the question: what do you look for in girls? I could sit here with a bible, a thesaurus and the virtue tree poster and still not answer the question. Sometimes it’s not what you look for, but how you feel. Sometimes it’s not the qualities you’re looking for, but the flaws that you can look past. Two nickels may seem like a whole lot more, but I’d rather choose a dime.